Day 107

I don’t care.

I used to say this a lot. I used to see it as armour. If I don’t care what you say, you can’t hurt me. If I don’t care what you think, I can just be myself.

What I was really doing was unconsciously saying if I don’t care, why should anyone else. If I don’t make the effort for myself, why should anyone else make the effort for me. Including the universe.

And it was a snowball effect. I stopped taking care of myself, of my appearance or what I did. As someone who used to put in the effort and take a lot of pride in my appearance, I didn’t recognise the person staring back at me in the mirror anymore.

Now, part of my morning routine is now ensuring that my skincare and hair is done, and I am dressed ready for the day. Even if I have no where to go. It makes me feel ready to take on anything and any opportunity that presents itself.